heavy

ok sorry to get serious, but here goes. This is a weird time in my life. I've never been in a place where I love my job so much and I love my classes so much (that's pretty much all I do now), but I'm sad a lot. I don't know why really, I could name a few small things, but really not enough to justify all this crying. and I am not a crier.
Let's take today for example. It was a great day. I spent until noon getting CPR certified, ate lunch, and then took 3 of my students on a field trip to Costco where we bought breakfast food and candy. They go every week to learn how to shop and stay on a budget- they also earn money throughout the year (about $5/week) to spend on something at the store. After work, I picked up a check from the financial aid office and bought my textbooks (not something I usually do, but I figured I'd need them for grad school). On the way home the tears came and kept coming for a long time. No one around to hang out with, so what did I do? I went shopping. I actually needed a few things so I google mapped TJMaxx (my favorite store in the world) and went to the one in Littleton, because there's a Marshall's nearby that I never found. On the way home I promise I followed my directions, but google maps must have been mixed up b/c it said to get on HWY 6 West. By the time I got past Red Rocks and almost to Boulder I realized I was going the wrong way. It was raining and hard to see so I called Kevin and he got me going in the right direction. I had driven 20 miles in the wrong direction. I didn't really mind b/c I didn't have anywhere to be, but of course, the tiniest thing made the tears come- for 40 miles back home. It's starting to get a little annoying. I mean really, I don't have much to be sad about. Maybe it just takes time. we'll see how it goes. I have lots to be excited about.
Tomorrow I'm getting first aid certified. That can't be bad. And I have a date...